This Month

Amber and I had some crazy times this month! For example:

• Me(3:46:59 PM): How long can you be online for?
• Amber(3:47:07 PM): i dont know why?
• Amber(3:47:16 PM): need to tell me something?
• Me(3:47:42 PM): Yes...I need to tell you that I'm deeply in love with you Amber Jean Mueller
• Amber(3:47:59 PM): oh wow welll... i knew it was coming
• Me(3:48:03 PM): LOL!!
• Amber(3:48:06 PM): i mean how can you resist?
• Me(3:48:13 PM): HAHA!!!
• Me(3:48:17 PM): You crack me up!
• Amber(3:48:24 PM): lol
• Me(3:48:25 PM): Oh man **makes a kiss face**
• Amber(3:48:27 PM): yea
• Amber(3:48:33 PM): ohhh
• Amber(3:48:40 PM): you too baby face
• Me(3:48:44 PM): lol!!!!!!!!
• Amber(3:48:53 PM): lol

• Amber: im reading that single thing
• Me: hah yea
• Amber: its horrible
• Me: yea
• Amber: everybody says their ugly and hated
• Me: that's something I forgot to put on there darn it!
• Amber: ok must i have to say this again?!
• Amber: YOU DENI TEDDY BEAR ARE NOT UGLY
• Amber: i dnt care what you say
• Me: eh
• Amber: and how are you hated honestly who hates you?
• Amber: eh
• Me: Um...everyone!
• Me:lol
• Amber: denis fav word of the month
• Me: :-D
• Amber: like who?
• Amber: w/ev
• Me: that is my favorite word for this month, isn't it?
• Amber: you say eh so much
• Me: eh, I know
• Amber:ha

Haha, those were good times!

Def Leppard

"Have You Ever Needed Someone So Bad"

Here I am, I'm in the wrong bed again It's just a game I just can't win There you are breathin' soft on my skin Still you won't let me in Why save your kisses for a rainy day Baby let the moment take your heart away Have you ever needed someone so bad, yeah Have you ever wanted someone You just couldn't have Did you ever try so hard That your world just fell apart Have you ever needed someone so bad And you're the girl I gotta have I gotta have you baby There you go, midnight promises again But they're broken by the dawn You wanna go further, faster every day baby But in the morning you'll be gone And I'm alone [Repeat Bridge][Repeat Chorus]Every dream I dream is like Some Kinda rash 'n' reckless scene To give out such crazy love ou must be some kinda drug And if my time don't ever come For me you're still the same Damned if I don't, damned if I do I gotta get a fix on you [Repeat chorus]

*Hurricane In Texas*

Welp, I'm on the phone with my dear friend Devan at 5:30 in the morning because she is packing. The stupid hurricane has forced her family to evacuate their home in LaPorte Texas. She's been up worrying and packing all night, and has wanted me to stay on the phone. It's so upsetting that she has to go through this. I mean, she really doesn't want to leave her school and her friends. She's been telling me how her and her friends were talking about how they may not be coming back to homes after the hurricane hits. They need prayer bad guys! So does my family. I mean, my family back home is not very wealthy. Therefore, my old home will most likely be falling in when the hurricane hits. That means my family will no longer have a home. :( Please pray! I don't want my family and friends to end up like that. Then again it's all in God's hands. Thank you all! I really would appreciate it if you prayed for them. Take care, and God bless!

~Deni

Secrets, Feelings, and Emotions

A person's feelings and emotions are extremely deep. Secrets are kept and feelings are bottled up. Everyday we let more and more new secrets, feelings, and emotions sink in. Some are told, and some stay with us until the day we die. Even if a person does not want to admit it, they have at least one secret or feeling that they do not want anyone to know about. Whether it's about them or someone else...We all have them. Do you ever wonder why people become depressed or get emotional? 90% of the time it is caused by emotional stress, a secret that no one can know about, or just guilt about something they have done. It happens to most of us, trust me!

September!

Woot! It's September! Anyone know what that means?

MY BIRTHDAY! 2 weeks

Well, life has been good. I've realized some things about me that I don't really like though. Like, I really don't try hard to hang out with friends. I don't even really listen to what they have to say anymore. Part of that is because I'm always in my own little world. It's never been this way. I used to be "the listener" out of all of my friends. I feel so down about it too. I mean, I love to listen to people talk, and I love to help them. Maybe if I pray about it, God will help me through this. Yep, well I better go now. Bye and take care!

Eh

Barlow Girl»

Surrender

My hands hold safly to my dreams

Clutching tightly not one has fallen

So many years I've shaped each one

Reflecting my heart showing who I am

Now you're asking me to show

What I'm holding oh so tightly

Can't open my hands can't let go

Does it matter?

Should I show you?

Can't you let me go?

Surrender, surrender you whisper gently

You say I will be free I know but can't you see?

My dreams are me. My dreams are me

You say you have a plan for me

And that you want the best for my life

Told me the world had yet to see

What you can do with one

That's committed to Your calling

I know of course what I should do

That I can't hold these dreams forever

If I give them now to You

Will You take them away forever?

Or can I dream again?

Surrender, surrender you whisper gently

You say I will be free

I know but can't you see?

My dreams are me. My dreams are me

I am here...
Life is weird
Friends are gone, and I will miss them
I can't focus because I don't have my medicine
Lucky for me I won't blow my brains out like this girl my doctor was telling me about
I need some company
Someone help me
This post is odd
I will be gone for the month of November
My birthday is in 6 weeks
Night of Joy is in 23 days
I'm tired
I'm going, bye bye
~Deni

*Update*

Hello everybody! Sorry for the long silence. I have realized that I need to stay far, far away from the computer in order to concentrate on my school work. Plus, I got a cell phone and I have been trying to figure out how to use it and make it look cool. Life is grand! Enjoying life, and God's word. I've been reading the Bible a lot lately. What wonders it has done. Every time I read it I find something that is pointed directly towards me. It's amazing! Now, hearing or reading the same thing five times in one day from different people or sentences is even more amazing! I've had that a lot lately. It's weird. I'll read my Bible about something like "having faith" and then hear the exact thing again from a friend and from church. It's one of the moments where you just are like "wow...God is trying to tell me something!" Only, I get it all the time. He is constantly trying to talk to me. It's great! Well guys, I better be off. It was nice updating. I hope all is well with everyone. I love my life, and love all of you! Take care and God bless.

~Deni

Long Post

Well, I've been cleaning all day long. At around 4ish I have to go babysit for Christine. I feel so tired. On Monday I started working out again on my Total Gym. Oh wow, let me tell you how bad I hurt! My favorite things to do are the ab workouts. Now, every time I laugh it burns. Oh well, it's great to know that you are building muscle!

Church was yesterday. It was very enjoyable. Not that many people showed up though. I guess they are still on vacation, or something.

Still can't pass this one part on this game I've been playing. Pretty much stinks!

School gives me major headaches everyday. Especially math!

Lost in thought most of the time, and I feel like I can't concentrate. Some advice...Daydreaming is not a good thing!

I found out that I really don't care about my hair anymore, because people like it the way it is naturally(curly).

It would be nice to have an extremely deep conversation with someone right now. A lot of things on my mind at this point in my life.

I wish I could: get a job, drive, had a cell phone, be with friends at all times, and could go to the movies.

I miss my Grandmother.

I need a hug.

I want some ice cream. Preferably chocolate chip cookie dough.

I want a color printer that is actually hooked up. A scanner would be nice too.

"Faith" is my favorite word ever!

I want to be in the college class at church!

I'd like to be more outgoing.

I need to stop complaining so much.

My room needs some cleaning. I have clothes piled up in my big purple chair.

I want to be able to sleep at night.

I need new clothes.

ugh, I'm going to leave now. Bye!

Eeyore!:)

Let the light from the lighthouse, let it shine on me.I wonder, I wonder if the light from the lighthouse would shine on me...
Here is my thought, this is my plea.Lord let Your Holy Light shine on me.I wonder will You, hear my prayer. I know I'm not worthy, but I need Your help.Lord shine Your light, shine it this way.Shine it so I can see which way to take.My faith is in You, to bring me through. I have one question...
I wonder, I wonder if the light from the lighthouse would shine, would shine on me...-A Walk to Remember "Lighthouse"