So many Questions

Why so many questions and no one to answer. I sit in my room and write in my journal asking my journal, "what should I do?" The problem is, I am asking no one. No one to help me with all these questions and no one to answer them. I know in my heart that God is the way...But I can't seem to not worry about things. I start to feel lonely, sad, and depressed. I can't help but think of when my life will be ending. I just want to be with God now more than ever. I want all the pain, headache, and sorrow to be left behind and never to return to me. I have so many questions... Oh well, there's no use in asking them. What could you do about it?